who am I (part 1)

As one would say that when people (most people!) get older, they become reticent or they start reminiscing about the past more than they ever did before. Well, for me, I think I have become much more aware of who am I or what is it that I do in being me.
This may sound like a philosophical discourse but to give an example, I can say that earlier “being me” was a preoccupation with what I did or not and who received it or not, etc. Today, I am far more aware of who am I in the way that I am. Very simply speaking I am aware that my way of speaking, my intonations, my expressions and my way of relating, given that I am a hypertensive, impatience, critical, anxious and intense individual, generates whole lot of feelings for whole lot of people in various ways. for some people, my expressions create disturbances like intimidation, fear (depends on where the person is on the power structure vis-a-vis me), irritation, repulsion, withdrawal, etc; for some it creates a sense of identification, and yet for some, it creates a sense of curiosity. This results in all kinds of dynamics in my relatedness with various people at all levels. I have just about started looking at this process, though I am not sure what to do about it, except to be more aware of it. I am not even sure whether there is anything that needs to be done.

However, this post was not about what happens in my relatedness with people, this post is about who do I think I am.

I don’t know what name to give to this post!

December 21 came and went and the world did not end. and yet 2012 left most of us feeling numb, pained and frustrated by the violence. This violence is not new, our response to it was. The response was unprecedented and while I felt good that we responded, I do hope that we persevere and sustain the movement.

What I would like to write about is about violence done by us, the near and dear ones … us, who are supposed to protect the children. Day in and day out we are senstitized by the news coverage. Be it in print and through other media about violence on children, women and the weak. And, not just by the men, also by women, by mothers.